Thoughts of a Fat Girl

Unrecognizable
Disguisable
No one seems to know me
Been celibate for 8 months now
Seems nobody wants me
Self esteem at an all time low
People see that and it sucks
I’m tired of being that girl you know
That’s cute from the neck up
Supposed to be on a diet
But I don’t want to do right
Eat fast food almost every day
Then wonder why my clothes fit so tight
Got surgery in mind to correct my problem
Maybe that will soothe me
But even in that I’m scared to death
Not to die, but that my insurance won’t approve me
I keep thinking that surgery will change my life
If I said that “I didn’t” I’d be lying
To jack a line from a 50 cent song
I’m gonna get thin… or die trying
I’m tired of being a fat girl
I’m tired of shopping at Lane Bryant
I’m tired of the same Ashley Stewart gear
I’m tired of feeling like a giant
I’m ready for change
I want to embrace life
I’m ready to set the real me free
I’m ready for change to manifest in my life
I just hope that change is ready for me…
© 2008 NTAGABTF