On an all about me note - 31 months after surgery

I write this today, October 27th. 31 months after having gastric bypass surgery. I went from a size 28-30 to my current size 2-4. I am the smallest I have ever been in my entire life. At my smallest I always thought I'd wind up at a size 10. I have far surpassed my own expectations, which is partly a good thing and partly to my own chagrin.

When I look in the mirror now, I do not identify with the old me. I never see myself as the formerly obese Brandee. It's weird though because I see alot of my relatives in myself. Imagine looking in the mirror and seeing a clear picture of an aunt staring back at you. It's like my face and body are not my own, but belong to someone else. But I am happy in the skin I'm in, even though I am still a work in progress.

My eating habits are strange now. On some days I can eat a full meal, on other days all I can muster is a few bites before I'm full. The best way that I eat is to have several small meals a day. But even that is sometimes hard to do because I am rarely ever truly hungry. As far as my relationship with food goes, I can honestly say I simply view it as fuel to keep my body running properly.

Alot of people ask me if I have the problem of excess skin. I'd be lying if I said I didn't have that problem, but to me it's not that bad. My body was far from perfect when I was big, and even at my smallest, it is far from perfect now. I'm hoping that cosmetic surgery is something I can one day afford to do. I'd love to be able to wear a bikini!