Daddy Issues

It just hit me 4 days ago that I got daddy issues
Had to grab a couple tissues
As I cried my eyes out
Mourning over an existence I did not create
Searching for a father in every one of my mates
Just to realize no love could be found
They all were cut from the same cloth
Same circus, different clowns
I got daddy issues
Cause my daddy wasn't there
And when he was he was still unavailable
His love for me was unfair
He was emotionally distant
Inconsistent
But in trying to gain his acceptance
My actions were persistent
I couldn't get through to him
So I took my love elsewhere
Invested in the wrong men
And remained unaware
All this time I thought I was just unlucky in love
All this time I was gravitating toward the wrong men to love
My dad messed me up
I hate using a crutch or a scapegoat
But this here be too much
I think I'm smarter than the average bear
Yet for some reason I bear
The sins of my father
On my heart
And I'm looking to do things differently
But don't know where to start
Been this way for over 2 decades
It's gonna be hard to change
It seems hard to exchange
My range
For falling in love with the bad guy and the guy who is strange
But I gotta start some place
The bad messages I have to erase
From my mind's eye
Gotta remind myself that I don't need a guy
To make me feel important
Loved
Give myself a hug
When I need one
And stop looking for someone
Outside of me to complete me
I'm the best me that I can be
...Even if I do have daddy issues